Melisa's Life

Most of you know that I have endometriosis. I've been dealing with it ever since junior high. I didn't know what was wrong with me until after I had saige. I went from dr to dr and no one could tell me why my stomach and legs hurt all the time. I had surgery in 2005 and they took everything off but it just comes back. I had lupron injections in 2006 which basically puts you in to menopause for 6 months. I have taken 5 different birth control pills and have had different bad reactions to them. I've taken different herbs that are supposed to help and essential fatty acids and vitamins and all kinds of crap that doesn't help. The only "break" I got was when I was pregnant or nursing. Things have gotten progressively worse since kade stopped nursing and new symptoms have come up. (sorry if this is tmi) I bleed 2-3 weeks out of the month, my uterus is now retroverted which comes with it's own pain and my dr thinks the endometriosis is on my intestines and bladder from symptoms I have.
The pain has been getting worse and worse to the point where there are nights i am taking 800mg of ibuprofen, a lortab and sitting with my knees to my chest with hot pads on my stomach and back. I cant even exercise anymore because for some reason it flairs up the endo and I'm in bad pain for the rest of the day. I get so sick I can't eat and almost throw up. It's just not worth it anymore.
I guess I'm writing this for anyone else out there that has been there or needs support. I have an appointment with a new dr next week. I'm looking at having surgery again, but having a hysterectomy this time. I'm done having kids and I always said I would wait until I can't stand it anymore. I'm there now. It's taking over my life to the point where I can't function. I want to talk to this dr to see if there is anything he can suggest that I haven't tried yet or will just help me get through until the end of this semester. At this point I don't think I'll make it.


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I haven't blogged in a really long time. The kids are in swim lessons right now so i thought now was a good time. Things are pretty good around here. We sold our townhome and moved in to a house. I love it. It's quieter and we have a yard with a garden. We've had to do some work on the yard because it's all grass. We've planted trees and flowers and a good size garden. We got a dog door and the dogs love it. Saige is making new friends. She really misses her old friends especially since school is out.
We have been keeping busy with swim lessons, soccer, summer movie passes, bike rides down to the park and swimming whenever we get a chance. I've been reading a lot. It helps keep my brain active. I feel like my brain goes when I'm out of school. I should hear if I got in to nursing school soon. I'm getting anxious!
My dad was in a motorcycle accident a week ago. He was life flighted from price to university hospital in salt lake. He has broken a few ribs, his clavicle, pelvis. He has had surgery on his pelvis twice and 2 blood transfusions. It's scary seeing someone you love in that situation. He has been out of it a lot because of the pain meds and hurts a lot. He is supposed to be discharged to a rehab facility on Friday. He will be in a wheelchair for a while and won't fully recover for 6 months. It's really a miracle it wasn't worse. He wasn't wearing a helmet yet has no brain trauma. When he's alert he has been himself joking around and giving the nurses a hard time.
Here are some pics I have on my phone. I'll try to post more often :)



Our new living room



View from the deck



Saige at a princess dinner



Sharing Popsicles



My niece at her wedding. I got to do her hair :)



Saige and her teacher at kindergarten graduation



Kade at soccer



Swim lessons



Saige lost two teeth in one night!



At the heritage days parade



Watching the life flight helicopter take off from grandpas window at university hospital.



The kids in the garden
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Chris and I decided to put our house up for sale last week after thinking about it for about 3 weeks. We are in a better place financially now, we found a realtor that our friends recommended that is great, and our kids are at the point where they need separate rooms. There is a home in east Layton we are looking at, but it needs a lot of work so we are not sure yet. Otherwise, we are mostly looking at places near saiges school. We looked at a few the other day and found a few we really like. As far as our home goes, we've had 2 walk throughs already and one more scheduled for tomorrow. We found out we would qualify for te tax credit so we are hoping to sell before the end of April. It's kind of a blessing and a curse that my house has to be so clean all the time!


As far as all of us go, we are doing well. We all came down with strep at the beginning of this week and of course I now have a sinus infection and had to switch medications. I feel better today though, finally.
School is going good. I'm taking a cna class, which is a prerequisite for nursing. It's not hard at all, just time consuming. I start clinicals next week. I only have 3 more weeks left! I'm also taking chemistry and the Second half of the biomed series. I thought it was going to be torture, but it hasn't been so bad. I'm also trying not to be so stressed this semester, haha.
Saige is loving her school. We do too. They work with her on her level so she is not bored. The classes are smaller so she gets a lot of one on one attention. I am amazed how well she is reading and she can add and subtract, tell time, all kinds of things. I really want to be close enough that we can ride bikes or walk her to school.
Kade is crazy as ever :) He knows his colors and is working on learning the abcs and numbers. He is my little chatter box. From his "Hi mom! I woke up, it's morning!" to singing himself to sleep at bedtime, he doesn't stop. He has decided he doesn't need/want a nap every day which doesn't help my studying situation, but i've started doing quiet time instead and it helps. It's amazing how different my kids are. Especially when it comes to discipline!



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This semester has been crazy. I knew it would be hard, but I am finding that I love it. I am taking some hard classes but they overlap a lot. I love, love my anatomy/physiology class! The first day of class, my professor told us that if I don't get at least a b+ I won't get in to the nursing program. It's a scary thought, but I have gotten a 100 and 94% on my exams so far. I have been recording the lectures and listening to them as I'm falling asleep at night(I love my phone!) I also downloaded some microbiology tutor sessions that I listen to in my car and have been going to study groups on my lunch break. I feel like it's always with me sometimes. I have to do it this way, I have to squeeze it in whenever i can. When the kids are awake and chris is at work, I have been trying really hard to focus on them. Most of my nights are spent on campus. Whenever things get hard I remind myself that it will be worth it. It will, right?! The last week I have had major anxiety where I can't sit still. One day, I rearranged our bedroom furniture all by myself. I did 7 haircuts and 3 colors over the weekend. It has been NONSTOP! Yesterday, I forced myself to take a morning off and hang out with the kids. We ended up making cookies and dancing around. I really love my life and i'm grateful for it, even though it's incredibly chaotic right now.


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Today is mine and circes birthday. Chris got her a few months before we met and she has always been his baby. He said he knew we were meant to be because I share my birthday with his dog. Lol She used to be the most well behaved dog. We would take her everwhere with us. Chris would even take her to school with him and keep her in his hoodie pocket. That stopped when the kids came and we got ryu for her to play with. Now, she's old and doesn't care about discipline.
Anyway, she turns 11 today. It's a bitter sweet day for me. I love having a day to appreciate and celebrate my life and her life, but she is getting old and I wish she could stay around forever.
Happy birthday Circe dog!



This pic is from when chris and I were dating.



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I just dropped Saige off at school for her first day of kindergarten. I kept a brave happy face until I got in the


car to drive away. Then I cried like a baby. My little girl is growing up way too fast.



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It has been a really long time since I blogged. Things have been super busy here lately and then our Internet stopped working. I finally downloaded a blog writer app for my phone.
I'm in summer school right now. Math has been hard! I haven't taken it in so long that I have forgotten a lot. I'm going full time next semester, which will be a big adjustment. I have put my business on hold for now because of school. It has been a good break for me.
Saige starts kindergarten in a month! It's crazy how fast it goes by. She took soccer a couple months ago and now Both kids are in swim lessons. They love it.
Kade is completely potty trained except for at night. He is doing so good! He keeps me very busy. He is too smart for his own good sometimes he recently learned how to take the child locks off the door handles.
We have done quite a bit this summer. Chris and I went on a camping trip in June just the 2 of us. It did so many wonderful things for us and just myself. I have been feeling like I gave up a part of myself when I became a mom. I did a lot of soul searching while we were away and something clicked. Ever since, I have been making it a point to take time out for myself every day. I even bought my first pair of heels last week. Our marriage has been even stronger, which I didn't think was possible. We haven't had an argument in over a month.
I'm hoping that I can write more now that it's more convenient. Here's some pics:
Camping


The aquatic center


Lagoon


More lagoon


Wakeboarding at Willard bay


The 4th of july BBQ at our house


The drive to beAr lake


Swimming at bear lake


4th of July parade


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